Defying the myth of Perfection
When I previously blogged here, it had to be perfect. Perfectly edited. Perfectly themed. Perfectly photographed. In the midst of this drive to perfection I missed out on an opportunity. An opportunity to share. Often my drive for perfection paralyzes me into inaction. I have slowly embraced “good enough.” Let this not be confused with “lazy” or “sloppy” or “apathetic” (though these adjectives certainly are and could be used to describe me at one point or another in regards to this blog.)
This all or nothing mindset is based in fear and or a lack of confidence what I put forth a great deal of effort will not measure up. So instead of facing my ineptitude, I don’t try. This attitude and my feeling of incompetence waxes and wanes in relation to the season and what I am pursuing.
Next week I (and my family) have a huge decision to make regarding a path I could take in my career. It’s exciting and terrifying. I don’t want to make the wrong decision. I am comfortable where I am and mostly content. I grapple with the notion I should and could be doing more. I grapple with the thought of future me looking back right now with regret of the step not taken or in regret of the step taken. I am grappling with the timing and the loss of what I envisioned the upcoming year to look like in contrast to what I also envision five years down the road looking like. I don’t want too wait too long to get back into my profession, but I also don’t want to step back prematurely and miss out on my children. All the doors to this upcoming opportunity have flown open virtually effortlessly. I don’t want to miss my chance either way. Letting go of perfection in my life is a start, I don’t need to have mylife perfect to take action. The timing will never me perfect. Perhaps “good enough” is what I need to embrace.
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